so confused...

hey you guys, sorry I haven't posted anything in a while. My 'im bugging out' blog didn't upload properly. But i'm back! 

So I spoke to my Masi( aunt) and she gave me advise about how to approach the person I get anxiety about. She told me to not worry about it and talk to her. The whole year in those lessons have been really awkward for me and only now i'm starting to realise that she is not a threat or here to judge, she is simply here to teach. I spoke to her, I done exactly what my Masi did and asked her what I need improving on after the lesson. My Masi told me that this would help me get comfortable with her. Which it what happened. So yeah that's slowly working out in that area of my life.

My hair is still falling out. My small bald patches are now slowly starting to join together which is really scary. I keep putting coconut oil in my hair but when we check for new hair follicles or baby hairs, nothing happens. Also, I have a cold, my cold has been developing for ages and now it is here. It's so annoying to have a blocked nose all the time and have to constantly have to sneeze.  Mum says it's because of Hay Fever, but I don't have Hay Fever which is confusing. On top of that my hair is slowly starting to grey out a bit, it's losing it's colour. Over the weeks it's been harder and harder to hide all this happening with my hair.

On top of all this, i'm not in a very good position with my friends at the moment. You know when people say 'you will always have that one friend that stabs you in the back and everything'? well, that's happening.

I have taken up meditation, we done it in RE earlier on in the year and I found it very therapeutic and helpful. There is this app called 'calm', it basically teaches you how to meditate and different meditation techniques. I'm currently doing a 7 day course learning how to do everything. Also Mum has booked me a Chiropractor, which i'm not too happy about. Im kind of awkward when it comes to those sort of things. I'm also going to go to the doctor next sunday because Mum is starting to think that I might have a parasite aswell or something like that. She wants me to take a blood test to make sure that everything is cool with me. She thinks there may be something else wrong with my body.


But yeah, that was a quick little update of what's happening with everything. I will post a blog after the doctors letting you know what he says and also about the chiropractor. Wish me luck! If you know someone with alopecia, don't make fun of them but talk to them and support them. That's all From me


BigMouth.Maya